You ever feel like you are just floating?
I’m feeling this way right now.
Yes, Reusing Pic!
Yep, exactly like that.
Or well, not exactly like that. She’s quite happy with the experience.
But me…not so much.
I find myself floating from alt to alt, from server to server. Never on long enough to really get anything done. I float between logging onto my PvP Alt – Khesed; if nothing else to see who else from <Phoenix Rising> is on. I find myself logging onto Caligan to see if there is an Effer (Grats Grimm!) on.
But it seems that my time to play has become so screwed up that I hardly run into anyone! /sadpanda
I’ve not played at night much, mostly in the morning on my day off. To be honest though, the last few weeks have hardly seen me on for substantial periods of time. RL stuff has been pretty intense around the Zwingli household and job site.
But, I can’t pretend that I’m lacking a key component: motivation.
I can’t seem to get excited about anything: not PvE, PvP, or RP.
Which is weird, since there are options a plenty to go around. PvE hasn’t been better for as long as I can remember (I go back as far as 2006). That anyone can see the endgame through LFR is beyond awesome. Yet, I just can’t seem to get the motivation to gear up and go for it. I’ve one character able to enter into the new heroics, but that is about it.
PvP sounds neat, and I enjoy reading some blogs about it. But, at the moment it is very repetitious. I can only log into a couple of BGs, and that is getting old. Combine that with the utter stupidity of people (not unlike LFG), and I can only go through it in small spurts.
I only know of two serious RP servers, neither of which contains a high level character of mine. Even though I have alts on these servers, I’ve not been able to find my place.
Yes, I’ve even got some alts in some RP gulids!
I’M IN YUR GUILD, EATIN’ YUR PUDDIN’ POPS!!!!
But, there doesn’t seem to be the motivation that I had back in Wrath, BC, or even Vanilla.
I’m not feeling burned out…just sort of listless.
Should I go Hunter, Paladin, or Druid? (Those happen to be the types of characters I play.)
Should I go Horde today?
I’m not asking any questions expecting answers. I’m not asking for advice. I just need to put this down, in digital ink. Perhaps it will help me sort through a little bit.
Or maybe, this is art reflecting reality? Maybe, just maybe I’m feeling this way in my Real Life…and it is pouring over into my game play.
I guess that is a post for another day, on a different blog…no?
Z
P.s. Mom Update: She’s doing better, but still hospitalized. Hopefully she will be well enough to check out in a week or so.
Why not try a different game? Many of them out there, many even free. Or sign up for a trial. Everquest and Everquest 2 are free. Fallen Earth, if you like Fallout, this is your game (free). Aion goes free today or tomorrow. Personally, LotRO and DDO aren’t on my favorites list, but it’s an option. Rift is free for the first 20 levels. Nobody says: “Must Play WOW”
Of course, you are completely right!
I would like to try out SWTOR (long time SciFi fan here), but my computer won’t run it. Due to financial restrictions, we won’t be getting a new computer any time soon.
I’ve been interested in EQ(1&2) in the past, but didn’t have the time (or money back in the day) to try. I’m somewhat interested in LOTR (Yay Hobbits!). I just might try.
But, as I was writing, my mind was a whirling; and I think there is more going on than motivation to play a game. I’m feeling some dissatisfaction in my life; coming upon a possible transition this year, and not sure that I like where things are going.
edit: This is turning into a blog post…
I think that sometimes when life outside of game is hard and somewhat or even very stressful, it can be hard to just sit down and enjoy something like a game, so a game world can feel sorta meh.( it was like that for me when a family member had issues with mental illness last year, I know I was just to concerned about them nothing I did worked as escapism) It might be just a lull in interest, sometimes it’s time for something new. It sounds like you are moving around a lot from character to character so lonlieness may be a factor.It might be a good time to spend time out of the game with pople you know. I hope things get better for you.
Thank you so much. I really appreciate your words; and will seriously consider the wisdom found within. Loneliness can definately be a part of it.