This began as a comment to Feliz from my previous post.
Forgive me as I ramble… Yes, it picks up in mid-thought.
But, as I was writing, my mind was a whirling; and I think there is more going on than motivation to play a game. I’m feeling some dissatisfaction in my life; coming upon a possible transition this year, and not sure that I like where things are going.
edit: This is turning into a blog post…
Truth to be told, I’m not sure I want to stay in my current profession. I lead a small non-profit, making pretty good $$$ (stay away from school loans; they eat your paycheck!), have respect within my community. It sounds good, until you actually start doing it and go, “Meh.” I never actually “wanted” to go into this particular profession, but instead kind of fell into it (as one way to put it). I can’t say I’m miserable, but I’m getting to the age where I think, “Ok, I’m going to spend my career doing this? I’m going to be known as Such and Such Zwingli…” And, I’m not sure that I’m all that sure about it.
Hey, I’m blessed. I know I’m blessed. I’ve a fairly stable position. Good paycheck. A place within my larger RL community. A wonderful family. Meaningful work to be about. I know that I’m blessed beyond the average.
But, while I’m pleased with my family and community; the work has me down.
I have to also admit that not just work has me down. As people know, my mother is dealing with depression; and I’m sure it is affecting me as well. She’s about 5 hours away from me, and I wish I could be there. I hope to be able to see her in a week or two.
In between work and extended family, there’s been quite a bit of worry and stress. I can only assume that has some affect upon my play time.
I mean… I have enough expendable income to pay a monthly fee to play a game. That puts me within the .0005% of the world’s economy; right?
Life ain’t all bad.
And, I get to go to Subway and order extra Bacon! Yes, things are looking up.